Sunday, 7 November 2010

Life is a rollercoaster

Life can be so hectic at times, I may only be a SAHM but life can really go at a fast pace where I just struggle to keep up with it.

Oli has changed so much over the last month. He's turning into such a cheeky little boy, his talking is getting much better and his current phrase is 'Daddy did it' which sounds about right. He's also became more hard work, his new thing is 'let's drag mummy everywhere especially into the kitchen' . I'm not allowed to sit down when Oli's around, I'm to be in the kitchen apparently!! Guess he's starting to tell me where I belong.

I've been feeling rather stressed out the last couple of weeks and feeling rather guilty about it. I managed to convince myself that I wasn't allowed to be stressed and feeling rundown. I kept telling myself that I don't have a job to attend or any major life commitment so I shouldn't feel the way I have been. I don't have the right to say I'm tired and fed up when I'm having a bad week because I can come and go when pleased, I always have those nap times where I get a couple of hours me time, but those couple of hours are over as soon as they begin.

Uni work has felt like a full time job on top of the full time job of Motherhood. Even my favourite hobby of blogging feels like it could become a full time job. Everything and anything has been making me feel tired, I just felt so run down and it made me loose the fun factor and I know being fed up and stressed out was effecting my mood.

I did do something about it this weekend, I surrounded myself with my closest friends and shopped on both the Friday & Saturday as much as the cards allowed me too. We also arranged a babysitter and hit the town for lots of drinking and dancing. I may be suffering slightly today due to all that drinking and dancing but a McDonald's lunch and naps on the sofa with Oli helped to sort that out. We spent this evening at a family gathering which involved lots of yummy chili, hot dogs and fireworks of which Oli wasn't so keen on.

I still feel like I have a million things to do and I just don't know where to begin, but at least I have a fun weekend to think back too and giggle about when I'm being dragged into the kitchen for the 100th time.