Carrying on with the Netmums blog prompts for , this weeks theme is rule breakers. I never really broke many rules in life until I became a mother, well I suppose it started just before I became one. My life changed when I fell pregnant whilst travelling, he didn't want to know - which the last time I checked was still very much the case. But I wanted to know, from the moment I saw that positive pregnancy test I wanted to know. A week later when I had a bleed and was taken by boat to the hospital where thankfully everything was ok, I realised exactly how much I wanted to know this baby. I came back to England to start life as a single mum.
The guy I was crushing on before I left for my travels decided he wanted to start crushing back, and this is where I became no longer a single mum. We set up house together, things were going ok for the first couple of years. I even set up this blog at the very start, because it was me, the man and the baby. He raised my son as his own, he was there for the scans and even the birth. He was first to hold him and helped to pick his names. After time this got boring for him, I guess he didn't quite realise what he was signing up for when he took on me and my son. I guess it was like many people said after it all went belly up that we were just a convenience for him.
During the last few months when things were at its worst, I found a friend in his best friend. When it all got tough and I needed to escape from the arguments he was always there for me. He saw firsthand what I was going through and what misery it was causing. He became a close friend, a very close friend. Hence becoming a rule breaker.
This 'rule br
eaking' is now the reason I'm in a relationship which actually has a future unlike the last one, a reason to be happy and actually look forward to what life now has in store for me and in the future. The toddler sees him as daddy and nothing else, to him this man who makes him his lunch, reads him stories and puts him to bed is his father. They do have the most incredible father and son relationship and no one would know any different. We're planning a wedding and in April, we're both looking forward to the arrival of another baby. A baby boy was very much planned and we cant wait to introduce him to the toddler. A new brother just a couple of weeks after his birthday, we'll just call it a late birthday present. My rule breaking was the best rule I had ever broken.